i like the smell of grass after the rain. i dont know what i am doing right now. i have a lot on my plate, but i am just letting the work pile up. 3 alarms cant wake me up in the morning anymore so im setting a 4th one.
i've got a crazy strong desire to go camping. not in ready-made tents near some buildings with clean water and catered food kind of camping. but real camping in the wild like that in gunong stong. fully exhaust my energy in the day trekking up a mountain, bathe by the waterfall drink from the waterfall, survive on rice cakes and energy bars. wow everything i didnt like about my experience at stong 4 years ago i am actually missing now. it was really an awesome adventure. physically exhausting like shit but awesome. in a place where time didnt matter, the real life didnt matter and everything was simple. i wanna go back to that place.
( 12:12 AM )
Monday, September 26, 2011
did handgrips last night, broke my nailclipper in half while trying to cut my nails this morning. handgrips are effective.
( 10:24 AM )
Friday, September 23, 2011
i'm not forever angsty. when i dont blog about it, it can be assumed that im not. but today i am in a bad mood. so.
had 4 hours of biosafety training lecture today. well, very timely isnt it, just after i'd been going to lab for the past 3 months, and had already cut myself with the equipment. apparently i learnt that i was supposed to wash the wound for 15mins hm.
have not been getting good results in lab. the tissue samples just wont stain nicely, i dont know what i did wrong. also, i broke my slides yesterday (Y)
the next time i open the door/gate for someone letting them pass through first and dont receive a "thankyou" or at least a smile, i'm gonna say YOURE FUCKING WELCOME. ok mayb without the swearing. seriously where are your manners
how can a person change so much? i know people change, thinking change. but i figured shouldnt the change make some sense? or gradual at the very least. not a whooping 180 degrees opposite like what, overnight? it's like i hated durians my entire life and one day i just suddenly decided to grow a fucking durian tree in my garden?! i dont think i can ever understand that.
ok seriously i think i am overly excited. HAHAHA :D
( 4:49 PM )
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Top 5 awesome oldies, that make me sad even when i'm not. everytime.
Michael Learns to Rock - That's why you go away
Michael Bolton - How am I supposed to live without you
Journey - Open Arms
Harry Nilsson - Without you
the video looks scary though.
Celine Dion - Alone
this is poise. freaking amazing
( 5:03 PM )
i hope my drumset can survive the recent increasingly aggressive beatings.
i really really wanna punch through a wall, shout at the top of my lungs.
patience is a virtue, but waiting to board bus95 during peak hours is wearing off my virtue. seriously, missing 6 buses cos they're all packed, is NOT cool.
i need, some sort of encouragement. something to give me faith. but the stories i've been hearing, they are not helping. i need an example of things working out, something to make me believe again.
i know no one can save me. i gotta save myself. from this deep bullshit. fuck
( 1:12 AM )
Monday, September 12, 2011
i am so far behind in my studies aaaah. having slow progress in my labwork too. and my prof is leaving nus by the end of this year, which means i must now pray that another prof will take me. well.
i know this is only remotely going to work. but if anything, this is the only way so.
on a different note OMFG I AM SO HAPPY AND EXCITED. hope it doesnt change.
( 10:40 PM )
Friday, September 09, 2011
it shouldnt be like this, i shouldnt have to fight it.
2 romantic comedies back to back. ah yes i love romantic comedies. but i cant help but think that they give false hopes and expectations about love, like things always work out in the end. i mean come on. anyway Crazy Stupid Love >>> Bad Teacher
if i was still as naive as before, i wouldve seen it as a sign from above. but i am more sensible now, so dear lao tian ye, please stop tricking me.
my uncle's lying in hospital, stroke. seems to be getting worse. enough. from now on its time to get better alright
( 1:27 AM )
Thursday, September 08, 2011
mary showed me this
BLOT BLOT WESTERN BABY, GOT NO BANDS THIS SHIT IS CRAZY.
GENIUS. really sums up my feelings towards honors proj.
and i am not proud of being able to appreciate such humour.
( 2:09 AM )
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
suay lab day. had a hard time sectioning the tissues, got quite frustrated cos i was sitting there with full concentration for hours yet the stupid kidney and liver tissues just wont come out nicely. was losing patience. then while i was attempting to clean the blade i felt my skin being sliced. ffargh damn careless. and the blood kept oozing out i panicked and only thought of applying pressure to stop the bleeding. sheet. shouldve washed my wound immediately but i didnt. hope i dont get any infection. ahh but they are rat tissues and treated with pro-inflammatory chemicals. am i GGfied.
traumatic.
( 10:01 PM )
Monday, September 05, 2011
had a super unproductive lab day today. i hope tomorrow the tissues will be good to me.
bowel movements very active whenever im in hall. WHY. i am back where i was, like nothing has ever happened, or changed. but you know what, NEVERMIND, COS I GOT CHIPS.
( 11:59 AM )
Thursday, September 01, 2011
ahh, i think i found the cause of my backache. dont see the link though.
it has come to my attention, how my thinking about things has changed. and it scares me, how much negativity i had grown to have. you know they say dont regret things that happened to you in the past cos they make you who you are today. well then, what if i dont like who i am today. i need to fix myself. but im not bob the builder, i dont know how to fix it. HAHA. no, seriously.
( 9:11 PM )
you know sometimes you feel like you can carry a tray of water with one hand bcos its only a fucking tray of water how heavy can it get. but then you had to fill the tray to the brim bcos thats how it works. and your hand starts trembling and threatening to give way from the increasing weight but you are too fucking stupid/stubborn to put the tray down on the sink while filling it with water. finally its up to the brim and your free hand had to screw up the direction of the confusing faucet so instead of turning off the tap you turned on full blast. and then with that final blow you drop the fucking tray.
random as hell?
( 1:01 AM )
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i tried sniffing coke once but the ice cubes got sucked into my nose.
i am an angel, the horns are just there to keep the halo straight.
